Life has been looking up from the start of the year. Yay.
My university results have significantly improved from last year, while leaving ample room for improvement still.
I’ve been handling stress better, or perhaps gotten better at avoiding it.
Starting to open up more with close ones; I feel this one is going to be an ongoing learning experience.
Taking more risks even with the possibility of failure lurking around corners.
Started a passion project and determined to see it succeed when launched. This is probably one of the things taking up a lot of my personal time at university but I feel it’s worth every second and hurdle to be jumped over.
And that is me for now.
I write better in my head when things aren’t going so well. Or when I really need to sleep, and my brain decides to think in words, which I think of as writing in my head. But things are going pretty well, and it’s great. I don’t know how long this can or will last, but I’m going to enjoy it. 🙂
There is a certain joy in discovering new words and meanings, I know it’s kind of a dorky thing to admit but it’s absolutely true. For me, it’s made more special because my horrible memory makes it hard for me to retain much information from the things I take in around me. Recently I have been trying to get back into reading and finished Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Rings after a long year of half-assed attempts at completing it.
I’m coming to realize more and more these days, that while some people are naturally talented the rest of us have to try much harder to not only build up our skills but to also maintain it. My reading habits fell down the drain by the end of high school. As a result I find it hard to focus on reading for thirty minutes these days before getting distracted, even though I can remember a time when I could read for hours uninterrupted- completely content in a world elsewhere although I’m sure there can be problems with too much of anything.
I tend to think about the past a lot, and the future in relation to the present. I know there are people out there who tell you to just live in the moment, but can’t you live in the moment while still heeding the warnings of your past and considering your future? My past showed me the dangers of getting sucked up into imaginary worlds that were much better than my reality and forgetting to live, my present is showing me the implications of abandonment of my ‘reading and obtaining information’ muscles and plans are being made for my future to take in the mistakes of past and present and learn from them the power of balance.
“Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.” – Louis de Bernières – Corelli’s Mandolin.
The L word. Love. I think this guy understood it as much as anyone ever could. Maybe that’s because I was never a huge romantic. Maybe it’s because I never quite bought the fairy tales or movie versions of love. Maybe it’s not just any one thing, but a set of little things that build up on each other. Whatever the reason or reasons may be, I think he understands the truth about real love.
Do you agree? What is your definition?
Wise words from a wise lady.
For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.